HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

LOL grabe ang bilis ng araw!! and i don't wanna think about how fast time flies kase parang nasayang lang ung ibang araw ko sa pagiging random ko :)) ANYWAY :) 2011 was one heck of a great year for me, biruin mo nung 2011 GRUMADUATE AKO SA PAGIGING HIGH SCHOOL STUDENT, NAKATAPOS KME NG THESIS, I'VE BEEN WITH COOL PEOPLE like my best friends forever NADAHATAPABEBI, MET NEW PEOPLE, FOUND NEW CIRCLE OF FRIENDS, NAKAPASOK AKO SA UST and LEARNED TO LIVE ON MY OWN :) 2011 gave me different kind of challenges like COLLEGE, PRESSURE and FAMILY. I don't remember how I managed to overcome all these but i'm grateful to each person in my life that made me stronger and taught me how to live my life to the fullest. Living Mary Help was on of the saddest part of my life :( kase we've grown old in that school and I never put into mind that someday i'd be leaving it. Simula ng college life ko my relationship with God became poor and this new year i'm going to regain what i've lost. BABAWI AKO KAY GOD :) I LOVE YOU PO!! SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A DORK AND FORGETTING TO PRAY WELL :( actually may new year's resolution po ako.. first is MAG SIMBA EVERY SUNDAY!!! yeah ahihi.

Of course di makukumpleto ang post kong ito ng walang tungkol kay PAPA RENZ =)) 2011 is our year!! 2011 is never fun without him. i love him, yes i truly do. kahit minsan lagi ko syang di kinakausap, di pinapansin, laging sinusungitan, laging pinagsasabihan at inaaway at nilalait at sinusuntok at ewan ko na dami kong ginagawa sakanya HAHAHAHAH. Minsan naiisip ko may pagkasadista ako lalo na pagdating sakanya..cute nya kase umiyak parang si damulag lang HAHAHAHAH. kahit ba naman dito inaaway ko pa din sa paparenz =)) ZzZ weh pero seryoso thinking of not having him by my side is like earth with no heaven, he made each day worth it, he tries to make me laugh even though i really don't want to, he freakingly annoys me!!! that's why i love him soooooooo much nomnom =))) he can do all the mistakes he can do because i will give him every chance in the world. We are young, we learn and we become better :) We can grow from each other and someday we will become the best even though we're already the best AHAHAHAHA =)) I LOVE HIM and i won't fight this feeling anymore, i'll show it and i'll prove it. Nobody can love him more than me. HIS FOREVER MINE SO BACK OFF BITCHES. AHAHAHAHA. sorry for making you cry and making you feel sad and not important but really just look into my eyes and you'll see what you really mean to me. I PROMISE TO BECOME MORE LOVING AND CARING , happy new year puglet let's make 2012 a more awesome year :)

chikchikinana

minsan lumalabas ang pagkaubnormal ko sa mga pictures ko..di ko na nasama ung iba kase medyo madami un..HAHHA ung iba nasa facebook at tumblr :)) vanity...grr.

NOW YOU KNOW

need longer postssssss

wow a lot had changed and and recent na napuna ko is yoooong way nag pag ppost ko sa blog kong to. Reading my former posts and comparing it to my latest posts parang before more on long text posts pero ngayon madalas picture, picture with description..siguro dahil ito sa pag tumblr ko which affected the way i post things recently. Parang mas gusto ko yung dati kasi parang mas masarap basahin dahil sa mga details and stuff, well pero masaya din naman basahin pag may pictures :) so this time around i'll be doing more long text post para pag binasa ulit ako mas magiging masaya ako HAHAHA.OKAY.

kung long post lang din naman, recently parang lagi ako na-upset! kase feel na feel ko ang kapangitan ko =))) TOTOO!!! di ako nagbibiro seryosong usapan! tapos shet pumopogi si paparenz ko tas ako pumapangit....WADAHELL! ako na ponget!!! i'm doing things to train him not to miss me para hindi mahirap sa future , malay ko mamaya sikat na sya and he no longer needs me :) dadating din ung panahon na mapapagod sya kakaintay sakin pag nagtatampo ako at dadating dn ung panahong di na kami palaging mag uusap, kaya ako inuunahan ko na XD talino ko eveeeeeeeer. HARHAR. para di kami maghirap :)

ilovehimlikeinfinitymorethanbeyond:)

December 25, 2011 really Christmas?

post post blog blog. HAHA sorry late post :| napapasobra na ata ako sa tumblr nakakalimutan ko na ung first ever blog ko :) no worries that won't happen, minsan lang naman =)) err. This Christmas I have my tito's and tita here in Laguna, si Uncle Dale sa Liipa sya nakatira pero he usually celebrate Christmas with us tapos sila ate Pauline, kuya Niel, jason, Auntie Jenny and Uncle Ed taga Iligan * yeah sila ung sa Mindanao ung binaha and stuff, dito daw sila mag papasko dahil parang ang lungkot daw dun, and btw di naman sila masyadong naapektuhan bumaha lang naman daw saknila na medyo lagpas tao? safe naman daw sila except nga na bumaha.* hmmm. I forgot na kung kelan sila dumating di ako masyadong naghanda sa pagdating nila e :)) hmm~ bsta simula ng dumating sila kung san san kme pumunta~ parang halos araw araw umaalis kme, pero may one time na hindi ako sumama, sa tagaytay un! eh nakakapagod kase kakagaling lng namen sa EK nung day before tsaka di rin ako sumama sa Lipa at Green Hills, sumama ako sa MOA at EK. May plano pa ngang mag swimming kaso malamig kaya medyo 50-50 pa. hihi. Nung Christmas nag party, kainan tapos kunting inuman, half the glass lang ung wine ko mwahehe i'm no drinker i'm just a wanna be =))) here are some pictures ng mga pinag gagawa ko ngaung christmas break :) most pictures were posted sa tumblr ko pero i've decided to delete my tumblr para makapagfocus ako dito sa blogger ko :)

di ko na ippost ung iba madami kase =))

It is going to be a cold Christmas

Yaay :) its Christmas Season once again. Pero wow umulan malapit na Christmas, haven't blog for a while, picspam muna tayo :)

di ko magawang ilagay sa blog na to lahat ng nararamdaman ko. parang di ko mahanap yung mga salita para masabi o maexpress ang damdamin ko :(

Alam mo yon?

alam mo yung feeling na gusto mo sanang sabihn kaso dmo masabe kase parang nonsense lang din naman kapag sinabe mo pero para sayo IT IS A BIG THING? wala lang i often get that feeling . Usually pagnagtampo ako or sad or emotionally damaged di ko gustong iexplain sa mga tao kung bat ganun ako. Ewan kase ang hirap mag explain?? kase alam ko di dn nila magegets so why even bother explain. sayang effort laanggsss. Tapos ung sabhan ka ba naman ng GE ILOVEYOU... something..dko na tanda kase wala parang pagalit or what nya sinabe yun!! GE HA GE! parang kasalanan ko kung bat gusto ko na matulog at ayaw ko syang kausapn! GE iloveyou blah blah. SIGE LANG. err. dame ko pa naman sana kwento sa kanya ngaun pero nakalimutan ko na lahat kase naiinis ako sakanya :D<

a day or two

DUNNO EXACTLY what to write!!!/post. my day started out very good ! i woke up then went to CM to meet up with my bestfriend *coz she's comin over and we are going to watch some chick flick movies* lol soper boring nung mga movies!! kala ko masaya pero parang ang boring. we watched two movies pero we did not finished the second movie because it was really boring pero feel ko pag ako mag isa nanuod nun maeenjoy ko kase ewan ko =)) thats how swagerrific i am. anyway! we decided to go to SM calamaba na lang :) i bought cake for my mom and dad coz' its their anniversary tapos we ate white hat tapos kwentuhan for a while ng mga old times :) WE MISS HIGH SCHOOL. tapos umuwi na kame around 4 something. ako naman nakpagkita pa kay paparenz. ayaw ko na sana kase mpapagod lang sya kaso gusto ko dn naman kase wla lang gusto ko lang naman sya makita. naglakad kme papuntang CM - napagod ako kakatawa i don't even remember why! bsta i had fun. tapos bumili ako ng iwhite and sya naman ice cream binili XP after that i hanged out sa bahay sa may garage kase malameeeg kasama ko si chichi. tapos pumunta ko sa bahay ng kapitbahay namen kase andun si April kinamusta ko lang sya :) she changed a lot thou~ but its still her. i love that kid! haha. aun tapos nung dumating si dadi bumili ako ng ice cream tapos nag dinner na kame.. dami food HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO YOU BOTH. ahaha :) i hope they enjoyed it.

TAPos NGAUNG GABI ewan ko nabusog lang ako tinamad na ko... hay tapos sunodsunod na ang kamalasan...wow perfect day? so not

10th monthsary

yup today is our 10th monthsary! YAY :) wala akong masabe...LAGI NAMAN E! medyo fail ung monthsary namen, dko masyadong naenjoy pero masaya pdn naman ako kase pinuntahan nya ako dto sa bahay tpos naglaro kame ng pingpong and nuod ng clips from youtube :)

gabi na ! lol actually umaga na . nagpuyat kame kse nga day namen. kaso sana di nlng kme nagpuyat kung aantukin sya agad :( ung tipong snabhan ako ng "goodnight na..." nagmamadali nang matulog??? osige nalang ako kase oo nga naman may pasok pa sya tapos antok na sya..oo cge matutulog na tayo, so far this is our worst day baby :((

t'was like a dream

T'was like a dream pumunta si paparenz sa bahay the other day (di ko na matandaan ung date kase di kami close ng kalendaryo HAHAHA) aun pumnta sya tapos andun si mama, nagulat naman si madir. hmm ano ginawa namin sa bahay? first nanunuod ng movie eh medyo parang nabore nman sya :)) nag Dota nalang kme sa shop namen eh kasoooo lge ako na-disconnected! amp nga un e langame n nga lang DC pa \(O_o)/ err tapos nag ping-pong na lang kme *may dala sya pang ping pong e**dpat kase ppnta daw sya sa burday ni jm eh tnatamad na sya *** ewan ko ba dun imba un :))* saya kaya magpingpong tas bsta laro laro lang tas nagpabile ako ng miryenda kay tenene hmm..bananaQ HAHAA k. pictures?? oh eto =))

why so terrible mom?

dreams wishes and hopes all crushed down into bits, i don't even know where to start! seriously i'm really sad. aldksjalkda maygawd :( si mama kase eeeeh. BAKIT BA KONTRA BIDA KA! pwede ba suportahan mo na lang ako sa gusto ko?? SUPORTAHAN NYO KO SA GUSTO KO PWEDE?? ang sakit kase dba..sasabihan ba naman ako ng wag masyadong close kay paparenz kase bata pa daw ako at madame pa daw mangyayare , madame pa daw dadating...ano ba ibig mo sabhn..hindi kami magtatagal?? laro-laro lang to? ma! knock knock!! wala namang ganayanan..mahal ko yan e hayaan nyo na ko ginagalingan ko na nga sa pag-aaral di ba. Nag aaral na ko ng mabuti para wala na kayong masabi against us. Gusto ko magtagal kame as in forever ewan ko bat ako nasasaktan ng ganito..ewan ko :( i want him on my life and no one else!!! kung meron man dadating..pake ko sakanila may mahal na ko and i'll do anything for US to be FOREVER. I didn't love him for just experience!i don't want him to be just a chapter in my life!!!! i want him to be the leading man in my life, the sidekick who is always there, the bestfriend who always will be at the beginning and at the end!!! i love him because i know it's worth it and because i have faith in him. i know i'll be happy with you that is why i keep holding on to you. I know i'll never have regrets because i have him in my life. God please do help me in my battle for love :'(

dunno what to say

hi blog who you doing? i know you are pretty much fine . That's good but too bad i'm not. i couldn't explain how much hurting and heart aching i'm feeling right now. i thought that he'd loved for who i am and for what i am. so why does he have to change me??? why do i need to change?? so i am not allowed to have a crush on anyone except him..yeah that's cool..but not having a crush on anyone including celebrities *which are practically just fandom , illusions, dreams and just mere fiction for us girls..* dude just please wake up could you!? before you met me i'm head to toe inlove with a japanese celeb!! Gawd i changed my self up! i gave away my precious CDs albums and stuff!! because i thought you are worth the change... i tried my best to satisfy you.. i'm not that sweet cuddle type of girl..but for you i tried to be one...to tell you the truth i can't even concentrate on my studies with you hangin' around but i still tried to give my best because i thought you were worth all my efforts. I'm a girl..and it is natural for girls to look on someone cute or hot or handsome just how boys just roll their flashing eyes over a hot, sexy curvy something girl.. i needed you understand me.. to see through beneath those smiles..the deeper me. I've lied a dozen times for you, i shed tears more than i could. i just wanted somebody who could understand and love me for who i am...and i thought you are that somebody.

you only thought of yourself.. you never thought of how i really felt.. you can't see through my mask.. i can't be anything you want i can't give everything you want ... i am just not good enough...that's what you made me felt.. i hope to be healed soon. i'm tired of being hurt .

first day for 1st year college 1st sem break

12:00am nag start ung day ko :) yeah kinda puyat. before this day sempre nasa UST pa ko having my last exam about 7- 8:30 in the morning then went back at my dorm and left mga 10:00 then otw to laguna :) tapos i got here like 12? or 11:40. tapos sinamahan ko si mama sa Cm kase magbabayad daw sya tapos sinamahan nya ko sa salon de sta. rosa kase i'm getting my nails clean and painted :) STRAWBERRIES <3 yes. tapos mga 5 i went to my former school MHCS kase FLR to get together with my friends / batchmates :) medyo konti lang kme . tapos chikahan tapos may mga eksenang d namen inaasahan :)) bxtah un n un " mag ingat sa tingin" lol. tapos pumunta kme ng tropical.. arkhaye's treat kase bday nya ngaun kaya nilibre na kme on that night :)) tapos i got home fixed my problem..OUR PROBLEM and i lead to a hard decision :) pero keribells naman. but for now we are okay and i hope that we can get better. and today i don't know exactly what i'm going to do but please let it be productive XD

hello long weekend

haha i'm home sa dorm and i have nothin' to do :) imma have a post about my long weekend hmmm nung saturday i visited my former school!! yaay HAHA miss ko na mag aral dun miss ko na everything about that school ung strict policies, the sisters, schoolamates , friends, food? :)) places and eveeeeeeeeeents!! HAHA miss ko na mag sym imba. HAHA bxta madame ako namimiss sa school :) pumunta ako ng school kase namimiss ko na un atsaka para suportahan si paparenz<3 HAHA may game kase sila. Vball at balita ko panalo daw sila? ayun natamaan ako ng bola sa mukha ang saya hindi ba? JOKE! haha tapos nagkita kita kme ng mga batchmates ko kaso medyo konti kami kase ung iba ata tinamad ung iba naman may pasok :( sayang naman nu minsan minsan na nga lang magkita eeeeh. aun masaya naman :) after kong panuodin si paparenz mag vball umalis na kme at pumunta ng sm nanuod kme ng final destination 5! err yoko nun brutal or masyadong fdhjaskdljlas madugo? hmm bxta ang eemba ng mga scene kase puro namamtay natatanggalan ng katawan? haha mga ganun :P tapos oo nga pala bngay ko kay paparenz ung mga gift ko saknya pang birthday nya, monthsary, atsaka aniv. HAHAH excited ako bkt ba :))) ayun tapos hindi ko tanda kung monday ba un or sunday? ahaha finoot spa ko si dadi :)) mga natitripan ko talga ee. aun tapos nung gabi nilagyan ko ng iwhite sila dadi mama at kuya o san ka pa sana nag derma nalang ako imbis na hrm diba HAHA so aun nung tuesday mga hapon balik na ko dito sa dorm :) un laaang

I LOVE MY B-BOY SWAGGER

i'm a free bitch baby

pic spam :)) bored after prelims week. COllege week

rain rain go away

wala ulit kameng pasok. haha lakas ba naman kase ng walang tigil na ulan. Ayun baha. pumunta ako ng UST kahit parang feel ko wala naman talagang pasok. OYEAH baha yup ...NOMNOM!! =)) ew. tapos nung nasa gate na ko sabi ni manong guard wala daw pasok lahat ng college ayon umuwi na ko :P tapos natulog at nanuod lang ako ng how i met your mother sa dorm HAHA. i'm bored. pic spam?? sure sure. medyo luma na ung mga pictures ko :) magdusa ka -kung sino ka mang nagbabasa nito :))

bagong gupit ako!! di lang halata kase 1 inch lang pinaputol ko atsaka konting bawas lang ung sa bangs.

kasama ko si nahum, sabay kame nag pagupit e. Sa SM manila. LOL gugupitin lang buhok mo 150 pesos na agad!!! kung marunong lang tlga ako di ako magpapagupit e =))

yan eto!! sakit kaya..pimpol sa gilid ng ilong. sakeeeet tapos anlake pa.! pansin ko nadme ang kampon ng mga block heads?? sa ilong ko!!! uuurrrghhh kadurdur pano ba tanggalin un?

naasar ako. LOL kase naman nauso ung gnyang pose dun sa iba kong schoolmates dte!! WHATEVER!! ako na una =))) joke. wala lng nauna naman tlga ako na gumanyan sa picture...*my opinion only* na iirita lng ako pag nkkta ko ung pictures nung iba na gnun dn ung pose...HAHAHAH di naman masyado.. peace tayo :)

6th monthsary

hihi~ last June 25, 2011 - 6th monthsary namen :)

Nung 23 , and i believe that was a thursday 23? idk :)) basta yun na yun!! supposedly may freshmen walk kami sa UST kaso there was heavy rain due to FALCON. So ayon di natuloy ung freshmen walk and ung concert *sayang naman yung make- up and costume na wings :)), butterfly daw kase kami dapat and yung boys well, di ko alam kung ano sila basta may mahahabang tenga at ung maingay na whistle na pang gubat* Tapos nung friday walang pasok kase MANILA DAY . Kaso nawalan din ng pasok ung MHCS at iba pang school kase nga malakas tlga ung ulan

--speaking of ulan!! AHAH di ako inabot ng baha! buti na lang maaga ako umuwi! kung nagpalate ako ng mga 5:30 or 6 malamang nabasa ako ng baha :)) nung mga gabi na baha na tlga sa ust as in. Ung sa baba nga sa dorm namen lagpas paa pero below the knee na ung tubig.

Anyway,

Nung wala pa ung malakas na ulan balak namen ni Nahum *bestfriend ko* na umuwi ng Laguna kng friday ng umaga tapos uwi kami sa mga bahay namen tapos pupunta kame ng MHCS!! kaso nga di natuloy dahil kay Falcon. Nung Friday na talaga, di na pinayagan umuwi si nahum so ako na lang uuwi, eh buti na lang nung umaga mahina hina na ung ulan at wala nang baha! ayon nagdali dali akong umalis ng dorm at umuwi sa laguna. Mga 9:40 ng umaga nakauwi na ko sa bahay namen. Tapos ayun malakas padin ung ulan at balita ko nung mga tanghali or gabi ata malakas padin ulan sa manila baha na daw tlga as in hanggang pwet na ung tubig :)) buti na lang maaga ako umuwi!! Balak sana namen magkita ng babe ko nung araw na yon...eh kaso nga sobrang lakas ng ulan at basa ang lansangan AHAH ayon di natuloy.

nung saturday 25!! HAHAHA

ayon monthsary na~ nung umaga grabe lungkot kase di kami mkakapag kita ni babe. So ayon nag SMcalambs kami ng pinsan ko pero bago kami nag SM dumaan muna ko sa puregold sa Cm nagkita kami saglit ni babe!! HAHA saya ko nun e pero saglit lng kme nagkita kase kasama nya dadi nya...gusto ko nga isama sa SM kung pwede lang eh!!! urgh. so ayon n nga nasa SM na; wala bumili lang ako ng bag tapos ung pinsan ko nag paayos ng cellphone tapos kumaen tapos pmntah kame ng Mercury Drugs store para bumili ng gamot ng lola kooooo tapos after nun ppnta na kami sa dentist ko. TAPOS!!! nung nasa clinic na ko nagtext si babe na umalis daw churva ung parents nya , balak namen magkita :)) sbe ko kung gsto nya punta sa clinic tapos ewan bxtah ang adik nya tinakbo ba naman simula sa bahay nya papunta sa clinic...PWEDE NAMAN KASE MAG JEEP!!! grabe :"> kinilig talaga ko. The best un e.HAHAHA tapos basta ang saya....ung picture ko sa cp nya potcha ampanget e =)))) LOL basata masaya 6th monthsary namen :P

the manila life and the journey home

I was expecting to have an internet connection at my dorm. Sadly for me the guy there at the dorm can't properly work on my laptop and i think he doesn't know about configuring the wifi or something. HAHA. Anyway, my dorm actually cost 2,900 which has bed ,electricty and water. it doesn't include the food, you can actually do some laundry and a little bit of cooking and btw! its not air conditioned. i have 4 dorm- mates {?} but the girls who are present there last week were ate dana, ate jamae and ate anjhe. I'm not that close to ate jamae and ate anjhe xP. I always end up lying down on my bed, texting, reading my notes and cleaning up my mess and clothes :))

last june 5, 2011 - there was still no classes but ust held a mass at the something something building :)) it's close to the main building!! me and my bestfriend attended the mass but because there was a lot of people inside we decided to walk around ust. I seriously don't like long walks especially when there are a lot of people. Ust is huge * as in super laki kakapagod maglibot dun, you have to buy bottles of water pa para di masyadong mainet!! tas crowded especially sa mga kainan.* Right after roaming around the campus we headed to goldilucks to have our lunch then went straight to nahum's place. * buti pa si nahum may internet samantalang ako wala. AHAH when i was in nahum's place there were huge dogs inside their house!! i think there was four??? and not to mention the cats!!! gusto ko ulit bumisita sa bahay ng tita ni nahum kase ang lalaki ng dogs nila and friendly sila. at first natakot ako sakinala because they were all huge and they seemed to bite people pero hindi pala mababaet pala silang lahat =)))) but they need to take a bath first. LOL. tapos i was watching nahum do her thing *FB* we kinda played with our former classmates HAHA pinagtripan for short. tapos she created a tumblr account. tapos mga 2pm umuwi na ko sa dorm. nung pauwe na naligaw ako!! OO naligaw as in! maling street ung nalakadan ko =_= kinabahan ako subra!!! i was being paranoid naglakas loob na lng ako magtanong sa mga tricycle driver dun sa may kanto. then i got home safely naman. thank God dba. HAHAHA.

I have friends naman at my college :) i'm kinda adjusting so i'm still not going all out. di pa ko nangkukulet kaya tahimik mode pa lang ako. HAHAH My experiences at ust and at my dorm are all new to me. seryoso waking up all by myself, finding food, preparing m clothes going home from manila to laguna. things like that are just makes me nervous and anxious :)

speaking about going home!! sabay kme ni Genesis umuwe. Nung dumaan kame sa Quiapo kinabahan ako kase ang dameng tao and i heard na dun daw madameng bad guys like snatchers etc. pero ayos naman safe ako :)) then bumababa kme sa pgh tapos sakay ng bus papntang alabang then pumntah kme sa festival were we met up with genesis's mom and dad. tapos hinatd nila ako sa may mayapa church then my dad was waiting for sa CM tapos mga 8 na ata ako nakadating sa bahay namen xD mga 11pm ako kumaen ng dinner HAHAHAH yeah un lang

first week of college :)