Hi old blog, we meet again.
I made other blogs but I deleted them because I was so vexed about blogs/bloggers akjdla I seriously don't know what's wrong with me. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. The current feels that I have are like the ones I had when I was depressed and that does not look/sounds good. I remember back then i used to cry every night and i kept on hurting myself. I don't want to go back to those days. I don't want to feel bad about myself, i don't want to cry, i don't want to feel lonely and unwanted. I just want to feel happy and bright. I want to be free from my terrifying thoughts and negative aura. JAKDJSAJLA :( i wanna go out and be with my friends but it feels like that i don't have one. I know i have friends but it doesn't feel like that...my friends from high school, the girls i called barkada doesn't really speak to me that much right now, i mean look at them ..they look so happy without me. Nagulat na lang ako na they had a get together or something like that...may video pa sila. They didn't even asked me to go or like inform me na magkikita or am i just thinking it all for myself? baka hindi naman talaga dapat ako kasali dun kasi di naman ako needed doon? eh di ba friend nila ko? PLUS my best friend was there...so why didn't she tell me anything.....i mean...were bestfriends right....i don't know....it just feels sad and lonely. Everything has changed, college changed everything...i hate change. I don't know maybe i'll just try to ignore all these feels. well i've been ignoring these feels for quite some time. I can't take it anymore i'm breaking and it doesn't feel right. i just need someone to talk to. I just want my friends back.
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Monday, November 12, 2012
Hisashiburi
juma-japanese ang title!! HAHAH Hello bloggieeee, bulok ka na? yis nu naalala kita. WHATEVER. taray na ng ate mo. CHOS nuff of this. serious mode!!
Hell-Oh! 2nd Year college na ako!! Single na ako!! Nung isang taon lang eh 1st year college pa ko at puro problema ko ay puros lovelife! nako naknangtokneneng naman , mga nakaraang post ko dito puro kadramahan. Pero it's a good thing na din na narecord ko lahat ng saloobin ko noong mga panahong yon, I can see how much i moved on and kung pano ako nag grow from that tragic story. Sa ngayon, love life ko? HAHA 0% at wala akong balak na pagkaabalahan ng oras yan kasi ang dami ko pang pinoproblema besides sa love life! nandyan ang ACCOUNTING, MARKETING, FOOD COST, HOUSE KEEPING at kung ano ano pa. pinilit ko din mag hanap ng love life pero tinamad lang ako! ubnormal lang talaga siguro ako, lumabas nanaman ang kahiligan ko sa mga ANIME at MANGA. Mas lumalala pa nga ata ngayon! lalo na nung sembreak, maybe I'll post here kung ano-anong mga manga at anime na yung mga natapos ko :)
till` here pyooong.
Hell-Oh! 2nd Year college na ako!! Single na ako!! Nung isang taon lang eh 1st year college pa ko at puro problema ko ay puros lovelife! nako naknangtokneneng naman , mga nakaraang post ko dito puro kadramahan. Pero it's a good thing na din na narecord ko lahat ng saloobin ko noong mga panahong yon, I can see how much i moved on and kung pano ako nag grow from that tragic story. Sa ngayon, love life ko? HAHA 0% at wala akong balak na pagkaabalahan ng oras yan kasi ang dami ko pang pinoproblema besides sa love life! nandyan ang ACCOUNTING, MARKETING, FOOD COST, HOUSE KEEPING at kung ano ano pa. pinilit ko din mag hanap ng love life pero tinamad lang ako! ubnormal lang talaga siguro ako, lumabas nanaman ang kahiligan ko sa mga ANIME at MANGA. Mas lumalala pa nga ata ngayon! lalo na nung sembreak, maybe I'll post here kung ano-anong mga manga at anime na yung mga natapos ko :)
till` here pyooong.
Thursday, June 28, 2012
INTENSE
HAHA hello! mabilisang post lang to ah!
i don't feel empty anymore kahit na iniwan or wala ka sa buhay ko :) i'm just happy to love you kahit na sa ganitong way lang! even though you can't return the feelings i have for you okay lang sakin. That's love i guess. Kahit na di mo ko pinapansin or kinakausap or wala kang care sakin okay lang. Maybe i have gotten used to it or maybe i already accepted the sad reality or just maybe i over looked at things dati. ONE THING I'M SURE RIGHT NOW IS THAT I TRULY LOVE YOU AND I DON'T REGRET ANYTHING :)
i don't feel empty anymore kahit na iniwan or wala ka sa buhay ko :) i'm just happy to love you kahit na sa ganitong way lang! even though you can't return the feelings i have for you okay lang sakin. That's love i guess. Kahit na di mo ko pinapansin or kinakausap or wala kang care sakin okay lang. Maybe i have gotten used to it or maybe i already accepted the sad reality or just maybe i over looked at things dati. ONE THING I'M SURE RIGHT NOW IS THAT I TRULY LOVE YOU AND I DON'T REGRET ANYTHING :)
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Sunday, April 15, 2012
glimpse on my vacation O'12
HAHA heeyoong :) hi blog!! grabe nabasa ko ulit ung mga other posts ko about lovelife pala lahat!! YUCK >:P meheh starting now di na ko masyadong mag post about love and him. I'll keep it to myself na langs. JEJE. Pero wait summer post dpat to..
Hello :) you are reading my blog! YAY thanks!! I am currently in my Lola's house its in Surigao, sa Mindanao po yun. ANLAYO NU!! i decided to spend my vacation here, kase broken hearted ako, kase death anniversary ng lolo, kase magbirthday ung lola ko at kase gusto ko pumunta sa bohol!! HAHAHA. i'll be posting pictures when I get back to Laguna. ANG BILIS LANG TLGA KASE NG INTERNET DITO *sarcasm* HAHA.
A typical day here is so relaxing. GUYS! believe me ang lamig dito lalo na sa umaga!! not like in manila or like in laguna..ang banas lang almost everyday, dito hindi, umuulan dito most of the time pero hindi naman hard core ung pag-ulan. HAHA :)) sarap magbakasyon dito kase you can sleep na without feeling na ANG BANAS and you can just easily breathe in and out ang fresh kase ng hangin..sarap ilagay sa bote at ibaon sa manila. Kahapon pumunta kami sa sementeryo! ang cool kase ang lapit lang, we visited my lolo and tito and great grandfather and great grandmother and and and =)) adik ako sa and! PWE bsta un. katakot sa sementeryo!! minsan lang ako pmnta ng sementeryo eh kasi sa laguna wala naman kmeng kamag anak na bibisitahin sa sementeryo..nasa probinsya lahat tapos sa mindanao pa un OH SAN KA PA?
pero tinamad ako bigla magkwento :)) inaantok nanaman ako tsssk XDD hala sige matutulog muna ako. i'll be posting a lot of entry next time promise :)
i love you and i don't regret that :) i will move on maybe after 2 years...but i won't forget how much love i have for you :)
Hello :) you are reading my blog! YAY thanks!! I am currently in my Lola's house its in Surigao, sa Mindanao po yun. ANLAYO NU!! i decided to spend my vacation here, kase broken hearted ako, kase death anniversary ng lolo, kase magbirthday ung lola ko at kase gusto ko pumunta sa bohol!! HAHAHA. i'll be posting pictures when I get back to Laguna. ANG BILIS LANG TLGA KASE NG INTERNET DITO *sarcasm* HAHA.
A typical day here is so relaxing. GUYS! believe me ang lamig dito lalo na sa umaga!! not like in manila or like in laguna..ang banas lang almost everyday, dito hindi, umuulan dito most of the time pero hindi naman hard core ung pag-ulan. HAHA :)) sarap magbakasyon dito kase you can sleep na without feeling na ANG BANAS and you can just easily breathe in and out ang fresh kase ng hangin..sarap ilagay sa bote at ibaon sa manila. Kahapon pumunta kami sa sementeryo! ang cool kase ang lapit lang, we visited my lolo and tito and great grandfather and great grandmother and and and =)) adik ako sa and! PWE bsta un. katakot sa sementeryo!! minsan lang ako pmnta ng sementeryo eh kasi sa laguna wala naman kmeng kamag anak na bibisitahin sa sementeryo..nasa probinsya lahat tapos sa mindanao pa un OH SAN KA PA?
pero tinamad ako bigla magkwento :)) inaantok nanaman ako tsssk XDD hala sige matutulog muna ako. i'll be posting a lot of entry next time promise :)
i love you and i don't regret that :) i will move on maybe after 2 years...but i won't forget how much love i have for you :)
Friday, April 6, 2012
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