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days lang after my birthday and i feel devastated and depressed. Sa sobrang depress nagkapatong patong na mga problema ko. Sana di na lang ako nag birthday haha kasi ganun din naman malungkot lang din naman. This year is gonna be the saddest year ever, birthday ko pa lang sad na what more on the coming days that's why i never expect anything from anyone or something. Kase when you expect and your expectation was not fulfilled you will be more than crushed and devastated. Parang ung exam ko lang sa HRM kala ko maalala ko ung mga inaaral ko, i studied for like 1 and a half day for that subject pero nung nag exam i ended up having a huge frown on my face kase nakalimutan ko lahat ng inaral ko. HOW FUN DBA :) tapos when you got home may tatawag sayo kinakamusta ka then sinabe mo na wala kang nasagot sa test tas saknya parang wala lang, okay lang din un ganun, never expect nga dba, tapos kkwentuhan k nya ng kung ano ano na hindi nya alam n badtrip ka sobra, AND YOU CALL YOURSELF AS MY SOULMATE? based on this experience your pretty much not my soulmate :) Tapos while i try to cheer myself up by reminiscing ung mga memories na sobrang saya ko, you ended up making me feel even worse, more than devastated i was burned to hell. Thank you for destroying myself-cheering-up method. Lumabas na din ung totoo mong kulay, sige kasalanan ko lagi sorry kung ikaw lagi may kasalanan, sorry kung hindi ko mameet ung mga demand mong " madali " sorry din kung di ako katulad mo na sweet and stuff wag ka na mag aalala i changed myself already, so when u get back home today, you'll never feel the old me, CHERISH EVERY FEELING BECAUSE IT WON'T LAST FOREVER but i guess the feeling that i have now will be with me for a lifetime. I have no life to live only a body to move , thank you for making me feel this way, even though it crushed me , i'll be fine you won't care anyway. Birthday wish ko? siguro hmm, sana may makaintndi sakn, please? if not i think i'll die THOUGHTS CAN KILL. I slept with tears on my eyes and woke up having a lot of morning stars, then i cried ended up having a huge puffy eyebags. I can handle this everyday i'm used to this and i'll get through this. LOVE can change either for the best or for the worst. I had a lot to say but the mind can't say it all in words. I HAD MY SAY, I WILL OBEY, BECAUSE TODAY I AM NO LONGER ME BUT RATHER I AM YOU.

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wow a lot had changed and and recent na napuna ko is yoooong way nag pag ppost ko sa blog kong to. Reading my former posts and comparing it to my latest posts parang before more on long text posts pero ngayon madalas picture, picture with description..siguro dahil ito sa pag tumblr ko which affected the way i post things recently. Parang mas gusto ko yung dati kasi parang mas masarap basahin dahil sa mga details and stuff, well pero masaya din naman basahin pag may pictures :) so this time around i'll be doing more long text post para pag binasa ulit ako mas magiging masaya ako HAHAHA.OKAY.

kung long post lang din naman, recently parang lagi ako na-upset! kase feel na feel ko ang kapangitan ko =))) TOTOO!!! di ako nagbibiro seryosong usapan! tapos shet pumopogi si paparenz ko tas ako pumapangit....WADAHELL! ako na ponget!!! i'm doing things to train him not to miss me para hindi mahirap sa future , malay ko mamaya sikat na sya and he no longer needs me :) dadating din ung panahon na mapapagod sya kakaintay sakin pag nagtatampo ako at dadating dn ung panahong di na kami palaging mag uusap, kaya ako inuunahan ko na XD talino ko eveeeeeeeer. HARHAR. para di kami maghirap :)

ilovehimlikeinfinitymorethanbeyond:)

Alam mo yon?

alam mo yung feeling na gusto mo sanang sabihn kaso dmo masabe kase parang nonsense lang din naman kapag sinabe mo pero para sayo IT IS A BIG THING? wala lang i often get that feeling . Usually pagnagtampo ako or sad or emotionally damaged di ko gustong iexplain sa mga tao kung bat ganun ako. Ewan kase ang hirap mag explain?? kase alam ko di dn nila magegets so why even bother explain. sayang effort laanggsss. Tapos ung sabhan ka ba naman ng GE ILOVEYOU... something..dko na tanda kase wala parang pagalit or what nya sinabe yun!! GE HA GE! parang kasalanan ko kung bat gusto ko na matulog at ayaw ko syang kausapn! GE iloveyou blah blah. SIGE LANG. err. dame ko pa naman sana kwento sa kanya ngaun pero nakalimutan ko na lahat kase naiinis ako sakanya :D<