realizations comes

naiiyak nanaman ako... ang habang panahon na naging insensitive ako sa mga nararamdaman nya...i had been the worst for the past one year of our relationship, kung hindi ka nagbago hindi ko marerealize lahat ng toh... i was too blinded of the fact na mahal na mahal mo talaga ako, i was too self centered to see that you were suffering so much that it almost killed you. Ang tapang at ang lakas ng puglet ko, he was able to endure me for one year na ganun ugali ko... now that i had realized how much pain i had gave him, hindi na ko magtataka at maninisi kung bakit siya nagbago at humanap ng iba...hindi na dn ako magugulat kung ganun man. Now that i've realized what i've done, now its my turn to be in his position! I'll be strong for him and i'll take everything that he throws at me just what he did. I'll do everything because he did everything for me, I WON'T EVER LET GO because he never let me go :) There might be times that i'd get weak and hopeless but in the end i'll strive to do my best because you did too. I SUCK, i thought i had given him the perfect love that he deserves but it was not even close to perfect!! I am a total failure, the things i said the things i wrote, they were all forgotten. I am so sorry for being a failure :( now that i had gained these realizations, i hope to finally give you the love that you want and deserve! YOU DESERVE MORE AND BETTER. So please give me a chance to show you how much love and care i can give to you. I miss how we used to be... oo nga pala, sana gumaling ka na, almost one week ka na din may sakit e :( kajdkkaljdlak :(((( depression mode again!! haay i hope things will get better for us because in every end of any day I always wanted you nothing more just you :'(